Things fluctuate, but so can I –

I have no problem doing things that I shouldn’t, and I fight like hell against everything else… (not required) –

It’s funny how I can tip toe around things… certain if I twist something a little bit more like “this” it may work out. All the while knowing that the true solution lies in acceptance and change…”But didn’t the world get the memo today? This is not the change I’m comfortable with… and the timing is horrible so…” I’m just being honest – but I realize the power is completely mine and as long as I continue to give it away… well, then I know what to expect. The reality is things fluctuate. They are not necessarily good or bad – they just are – and every one of them creates a plethora of new opportunities. I can deny them or I can find them… ultimately it’s completely up to me. 

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Give yourself a choice —

I have been waiting for something to click again… I’ve been stuck. By the way, “waiting” is huge progress for me! Yep. So anyway, I’ve been a mess… there it is plain and simple, but I forgot that is where the magic happens. I forgot to be grateful for the awareness. I forgot that it reminds me I’m not numb, and I can participate in my life – all of it… yes, all.

I forgot…

So there it is – so now what? Play the victim role clinging to shame? Stay stuck? Hell no! I would rather feel tired and aware versus stuck and hopeless – been there, done that. Today, my choice is to lean into the awareness and move on… remember, progress not perfection. Either way we’re moving forward –

— be patient, the payoff is huge.

Remember, happiness exists when and where we want it to. If you want a lot of happiness, you have to create the space. We are only confined by the walls we create – so own all of it – own every single drop of the magnificent being that you are – believe in it, yell it – I am magnificent. Not just the parts that you let me see, nope, all of you. Yes, even the tiniest hidden pieces 😉

Learn to rest…

It never crossed my mind that “resting” was an opportunity to find a solution to a problem. To me, resting was like wallowing in failure while sitting in a glass room, but quitting would keep me moving and out of sight. I was certain that I needed to run to the next thing – as soon as something wasn’t working, run… the quicker the better – the next thing would work, it had to…

… resting is vulnerable, uncomfortable, and it’s exactly what I need –  I don’t want to do it, but I already know what happens with the other route. I have nothing to lose, so — resting it is ❤️

Sounds like a plan.

This is the greatest news ever! 

It means I don’t have to wait around for everyone else to be happy, before I can be happy. It’s an inside job – so, I choose now… 

It means I can keep letting go of expectations. Those thoughts were way to much work, and they were never realistic anyways… for me or you…

… it means taking something that is completely mine and being ok with protecting it and nourishing it, so I can give it back to others… authentically – honestly…

It means I can always have hope and trust…

It means I can love the parts of me, that will help me – love you… 

I’m not sure what it means to you, but to me, it sounds like a plan ❤️