I realize it may look like bullshit sometimes, like I’m full of nothing, but fluff and pink cloud dreams. And all I can say is fluff and pink cloud dreams suit me well… I mean… isn’t that what it’s all about? Finding something that can bring out the best in us, something that feels good, creates good and can be given to others?
I had a friend ask me, “How do you keep it up? All the positivity and stuff?” My answer is simple, one day at a time. For me, anything else is a distraction. I surround myself with my tribe (like minded warriors of love and hope) and I make a conscious effort, everyday. Some days are easy and some are not, simple, right? It can be! It’s much easier when I let life work as designed and I don’t take every bump in the road so personal.
Ps. It helps to be grateful for the bumps –
Ups and downs will always exist, and my success in maneuvering through them depends on my ability to own any outcome. It doesn’t mean I “agree” with the circumstances, it just means I’m willing to work with whatever comes my way, for sanity sake – lol. It doesn’t matter if it’s what “I” wanted, there is still something in that moment to deal with, which means I still have a chance. It’s an ongoing process, and I choose it everyday. Hey… the fact that I’m thinking this way is huge! yep… pat on the back. It’s a must! I’m also really big on gratitude. Today, I’m grateful that I’m present ❤
This, life on life’s terms, thing is doable, but we don’t have to do it alone. Peace.
Ok, so I missed a few days, but here I am! Seriously, I just have to share where my Life is right now. I was gifted this notebook last night, at an Essential Oils class my friend hosted – Of course, it’s just a “simple little notebook”, I mean… – DUDE! IT’S SO MUCH BIGGER… for me this is the awesomeness that I get as I continue towards my goals… by using my intention and purpose. I get these little GEMS dropped my way that encourage me that I’m heading in the right direction. It felt like getting a GOLD STAR on my chore chart! It’s also a nudge to keep writing… just keep going… pen to paper – so thanks dude! The Universe just used your awesome class to delivery me a message ❤
This is how my life operates today… and most days when I choose it. That’s the thing… I have to be willing to open myself up to it everyday. I have to believe it’s out there and then it shows up. So now I’ll do the little disclaimer we all give — yes, life still has it’s ups and downs, and even my lows can have lows… BUT really? I’m tired of the disclaimer… we all know it’s there. What am I doing with my time? Where am I heading? Am I accepting myself today? Am I Loving others without expectations? On the days I do those things I get the results that help me thrive, and the “other” days stay away – so anyways… I’m sitting at the park with my yogurt, a few books, my planner and my new notebook…. It’s an AMAZING day! My eyes and heart are wide open.
be Love, Steph
I want to get better with writing and living so, I thought… I’ll do both – everyday, on here, and see what happens… if anything, it may entertain me and help me practice at the same time… perfect! Just to be clear here… I’m talking comfort zone crushed – willingly… honest and real, PLUS grammar issues and a lack of experience… excellent, right?! LOL – hey… I’ve got to start somewhere – I get it!
– Steph – xo
Revised… already ** Ok, so it’s June 4th now, but I’m doing it… yep, jump… I’m ready to write… everyday… to improve – yep.
I feel awkward in my life constantly, no joke. And my awareness of this feeling has increased by a million over the last few years. I have days where I’m more accepting of myself than others in this area. I think most people can relate to that in some degree, or maybe I’m just reaching for connection lol. Either way, for me it can be down right debilitating. I’m starting to see it, which is good – it means, if need be, I can start working on a solution. It means, I can talk about feeling awkward with other people who may feel the same way! I don’t know about you, but to me that is Magic… Helping eachother get through it all… yep. Ha! So, for now, I acknowledge you, My Awkwardness – and I’m not here to change you – just embrace you – for now ❤
So I’ve been doing quite a bit of Self discovery… doing new or old things to spark changes in myself, and yet keep me moving in the direction of my heart. It’s easy to get stagnant, and it can be equally as uneasy to get back on track. Today, I remembered how important my own physical health is to my puzzle. For me – it runs the machine. My thinking is clearer, my appetite is healthy, I sleep, and I have the energy to drive it all. Now… this doesn’t mean all of my decisions are good lol, BUT I am present and able to speak – yessss! There’s something about tapping back into that feeling – my internal competitive hunger. And just like that… another layer of myself revealed… ❤️
I’m good at stopping myself from doing things even before I start because as soon as I have an idea, I switch to… what will someone think, this will be hard work, I’d rather help someone else; self doubt, self-sabotage, and distraction. I get so overwhelmed and end up doing nothing, however, I convince myself I’ve done a lot and the world just sucks… and the cycle continues. The reality is, if I keep doing the same thing and expecting different results, I’m going to be let down every time. When I made the decision to hunt morel mushrooms it was a silly thought… I thought it was silly because it felt unachievable, even though I hadn’t tried. I hadn’t visited any woods at all… none…zero forested areas. But as this years season approached I decided to give it a whirl. Putting as much of the noisy chatter in my head, the “you look like an idiot”, away… I stepped into the woodsy arena and tasted a little self trust. Self trust? Yep… I trusted myself to try something new and to follow through… regardless of the outcome. I found nothing on my first attempt (or so I thought), but I must have planted a seed of hope… because a few weeks later I had the urge to try again. This time… about 20 minutes in I found a morel… and I stood there giddy with excitement and disbelief. I had done it — mission started and completed. Sooo… if I want to “be” something, I have to “be” it… I have to play the part… I have to step into the forest… more than once –
ok… I can do this ❤