When the simple fixes don’t work and the band-aids are all gone… you’ll know –
Do you know what’s awesome? The Universe. And although I feel this, I still find myself getting tangled up by the nonsense the world, and my humanness has to offer. Most of the time the main culprit is … EXPECTATIONS — Mine, yours… for ourselves, for each other, for the “if you would just do this” everything would be “perfect.” I don’t ever forget there’s a bigger plan, I just decide to grab the reigns “a little” and damn near end up driving myself into the ground. However, the Universe always has my back… she picks me up, dusts me off and then places a little more magic in my hands so I can let go of the reigns again- why? True Love. The kind of True Love that can only come from the magic of the Universe. The question is… Am I Listening? But it doesn’t stop there. The next step is even more important and it took me a little while to understand it, and I’m STILL learning. Reality is… I have to be a part of it. I have to get up and go. I have to live. I have to Believe. I have to use my eyes to see and my hands to create. I believe the magic lies within… its like we’re a human snow globe that needs a little shaking. And when we start to shake and glisten, we create more and we attract more.
This last spring, I decided to make some changes in my life… to hike, kayak, be with nature more etc… and along the way I decided to try morel mushroom hunting. I had zero knowledge, but the season was here and I was already in the woods, why not right? And that’s where it all began. My conversations with the Universe. I’ll never forget the first morel I found, it was the biggest “welcome home” feeling I’ve had in a long time. I’m in that place again, wanting/needing more change and I’ve set out to find it. Below is a picture of an ornament. However, to me, it was a perfectly placed answer to a question I asked the Universe. But if I wasn’t listening, I would have missed it. I found it hanging on an upside down Christmas tree display, right after I had told someone I wanted to create more magic for Christmas this year. BOOM. Call it what you want… I call it a hug from The Universe ❤
We are so Loved. Are we Listening?
I’m back in that place…Craving isolation – and space.
Don’t panic! It’s not as it seems;
only familiar and predictable themes.
Time for A change –
Today, I have 35 months of sobriety. I literally just woke up from having a using dream, and boy it was a doozy. I haven’t really experienced to many of those along my journey, and after that experience, I’m grateful that it’s done. My desire to drink has poked its head around often this summer and although that doesn’t scare me, taking a drink does — So… It’s time for more work – emotional healing., self love, self acceptance, patience… etc. It’s time to remember that 35 months, of not drinking, is an AMAZING f’ing accomplishment and all I have to focus on for today is… today. Grateful –
One thing I’ve noticed about living a more authentic truthful life… not everyone is ready for the truth — and although the truth may not be negative, sometimes things can affect many people, completely out of anyone’s control. It can affect friendships, relationships, even families. And there’s always a truth not told, it’s told incorrectly, or one party is usually missing from the situation and well… if a judgement is made on that… I’m confused. That sounds like bullshit to me. I find that living a more honest life works for me and the goal is not to be hurtful, but to live with a clearer more peaceful mind. For me… No more hiding = tons of freedom and a great night’s sleep. Yes please!
Yes that is what happened, no reason to run – plant your feet firmly and refuse to budge. There is only one way out and that is getting through whatever it is holding you back.
You could… Go ahead and ignore it, let it manifest, let it take hold of your mind and build resentments or just simply let it take over your mind so you can dwell on it until you can’t breathe or function. OR…
Grab a hold of someone walking the same path and live your truth – live through your inner self – the one you’ve been protecting. We’ve told each other to suck it up and be a big girl/boy for too long – yes, there is a time for that strength too. The footwork is still your responsibility. However, nobody ever said we had to do it alone — OR…
I just thought I would get the conversation started, so many things to try, start talking… ❤
I realize it may look like bullshit sometimes, like I’m full of nothing, but fluff and pink cloud dreams. And all I can say is fluff and pink cloud dreams suit me well… I mean… isn’t that what it’s all about? Finding something that can bring out the best in us, something that feels good, creates good and can be given to others?
I had a friend ask me, “How do you keep it up? All the positivity and stuff?” My answer is simple, one day at a time. For me, anything else is a distraction. I surround myself with my tribe (like minded warriors of love and hope) and I make a conscious effort, everyday. Some days are easy and some are not, simple, right? It can be! It’s much easier when I let life work as designed and I don’t take every bump in the road so personal.
Ps. It helps to be grateful for the bumps –